Thursday, June 28, 2012

Ammonia

**WARNING: This post is very long. I can't tell short stories**



In February my mind was being weird. One night while I was getting ready for bed I noticed I would be thinking of something or a story in my mind and then it'd leave and I'd totally forget what I was just thinking about. Once I realized this I got a little scared. I didn't know what was happening. So I went and woke up my roommate.  Even when I was talking to her about it, it kept happening. She thought I was just tired and needed some sleep. A few weeks later I was thinking I didn't tell my other roommate, who is a PA, what had happened so I started telling her and she stopped me and said I had already told her. (at the time I was feeling like it was happening again so that's why I started telling her) That really freaked me out! I happened to have a lung doctor appointment the following week in March so I brought it up to him. He thought maybe my carbon dioxide may be too high. He wasn't sure what it was so he ordered some blood work.

So on March 4th I went to do the blood work. Usually I only have to get poked once and then however many vials they need they'll take. Well, this time around it was a little different. I knew it would be so I was dreading it. There were two or three tests that could come from that one needle poke, but the other type of blood test he wanted was a special kind called an arterial blood gas (ABG). This type is done by itself in a main artery coming from your heart. You can only get the results from the wrist or on the side of the arm by the elbow. I had already had this kind of test done a few years ago when I was in the hospital. That time around I had it done in my wrist and it hurt like heck! The lady had to do it twice because she messed up the first time. Ouch!!!

Anyways, so back to recently... I was really nervous this time around because I knew what it entailed. They don't do it at a normal lab so I had to have it done at the hospital in the ER.  I was expecting to have it done in the wrist again because that's where it was last time, but this time the tech let me choose either the arm or wrist. Since I already knew how bad the wrist hurt I went for the arm.

So first he did the regular blood draw on my left arm. It went perfectly fine. Barely hurt. I'm use to the normal blood draws. Then I had to gear myself up for the next one, ABG, on my right arm. Let's talk about the needle. This isn't your typical straight, thin, easy peesy needle. It's curved at the end of it because he has to go in at an ANGLE for some odd reason. He told me why, but let's be honest, I wasn't really thinking straight at the time so I don't remember. I just wanted it out! He didn't get it exactly in place right away because the artery moved so he had to move the needle around. He finally got it to where it needed to be and started drawing blood. At this point I had hyped myself up/arm hurting that I started sweating and getting light headed. My friend proceeds to tell me I look pale. That didn't help because one of my fears is passing out. Never have though. Hopefully never will. I ask for my oxygen thinking that will make everything better, but I honestly think it's a comfort thing to me sometimes. I didn't NEED it, but my thinking was that if I had it on it would help the situation. So I put it on and started calming down. The needle wasn't in too long after the tech got it in the right place and blood coming out. Oh and I never look at the needle or the blood draw itself so I wasn't sure how much more longer he had to go. I try talking about something totally different or ask the tech questions just to get my mind off of what's actually happening. So anyways, he's done, takes the needle out, bandages me up, and I lay there until he comes back with the results and also because I felt really weak, hot, and tired still from the ordeal. After a few more minutes we left. My friend pulled up the car to the door so I wouldn't have to walk all the way out there. Lucky for me my oxygen ran out just as I was leaving the hospital.  (Can you say prepared?)

RESULTS
The results were that my ammonia level was a 51 and it's suppose to be I believe no more than 35. This means my liver is keeping the bad toxins instead of releasing them and that's not good because it can damage my liver. So now I'm on a medication that's suppose to be bringing this number down. After a month or so of taking it I noticed I was nauseous and getting dizzy sometimes so I just stopped taking it. Yeah, that's probably not smart. But just recently I noticed I'm forgetting things more or I feel like it takes me more time to think of a word so I started taking it again, but this time I lowered how many times I take it. I didn't even know your liver had an ammonia level, let alone it could affect your brain. Who knew?! Well, definitely not me!


Here I am a few hours after I've been home. My friend drove thru In & Out on the way home so I could get a hamburger for dinner. Yum!

If your to the end of this then your a trooper and should give yourself a pat on the back!!

Friday, May 18, 2012

Enrichment Night

Back on March 1st my friend's enrichment night was playing The Price is Right. I thought it'd be fun to go watch so I tagged along. Going into it I wasn't going to play. Well, I ended up playing and then actually getting called up to be a contestant right away. Before I knew it I was at the showcase showdown! I can't remember if I bid over or not low enough, but either way I didn't win at the end. They still gave me what I bid on though, which was a trip to Hawaii. 




I didn't win the game I played, but they still gave me a party bag.




So this is what I scored
                                                                     - bamboo stick
                                                                     - frisbee
                                                                     - bath crystals
                                                                     - 2 pairs of shades
                                                                     - golf club
                                                                     - sand bucket and shovel
                                                                     - ring pop
                                                                     - sunblock
                                                                     - classical music cd
                                                                     - little party bag
                                                                     - Hawaiian lei       


Tuesday, April 24, 2012

New Place

My parents moved to another state so back in February I went for a visit to check out their new place. Mom and I shopped for bedding and hung up lots of pictures. I had fun drilling holes in the walls for the pictures.


Mom and I made cupcakes with stuff in the middle of em' for Valentine's Day.


 My favorite was this heart I made.



We drove to see some waterfalls. It was
FREEZING and VERY windy! I can't say that enough.



 Don't mind my fat lip. Don't know why it happened.
 
Drove further and found more... 

Again freezing, very windy, and fat lip



 


 City Courthouse

Went to dinner at Macaroni Grill

My brother has bieber fever so when he saw Justin in the mall he just
had to get a picture with him and not only that, but pose like him too. 
Thanks Justin for making dreams come true!


A lady in my parents ward has a cupcake shop and so we tried some out.
 The consensus was... (drum roll please) They were delicious!


I had to take a picture of the ones I had.
The one up above is all chocolate. 

 red velvet

 I think this was a vanilla cupcake with
peanut butter and chocolate frosting.

I'm sure when I go up this summer it'll 
be more pretty. I had a nice time up there.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Working to be Self-Reliant

Back in February I gave a talk at church about being self-reliant and working. I felt like a hypocrite because I don't have a real job so who am I to speak about these topics, but I was asked because I'm the employment and housing specialist in the ward. The person in the stake who's over my ward also spoke. He actually works for the church as an employment specialist and he was speaking so they asked me to talk too. Anyways, I thought I'd share it.


Working to be Self-Reliant


I have been asked to speak about work and self-reliance. To start off what is work? The prophet Alma put it as having labored exceedingly. Hard work is a blessing from God. Elder F. David Stanley of the seventy says, “work was instituted from the beginning as the means by which the children of God were to fulfill their earthly stewardship. Work is our divine heritage. In a broader sense, work is the means to achieve happiness, prosperity, and salvation. When work and duty and joy are commingled, then man is at his best.

It involves going after it with all your heart, might, mind, and strength. That alone is the difference between the average and the excellence.

Work builds and refines character, creates beauty, and is the instrument of our service to one another and to God. A consecrated life is filled with work, sometimes repetitive, sometimes menial, sometimes unappreciated but always work that improves, orders, sustains, lifts, ministers, aspires. I really like what President David O. McKay said about this subject. He said “Let us realize that the privilege to work is a gift, that the power to work is a blessing, that the love of work is success.”

Elder Stanley goes on to say in his talk that, “the frightening disappearance of work as a part of our basic ethic is alarming. We constantly hear the statements, “It’s too hard,” “Give me something easier,” “I want it now,” “I can’t wait that long” coming from our young people. The ugly disease of “nothing to do” is growing in epidemic proportions among us. It undermines the basic fabric of our nations. The prophet Ezekiel clearly defined iniquity as an “abundance of idleness.”
Elder Stanley shared a story about people helping hurricane victims. He said,

 "Just over eight months ago, a monstrous hurricane swept into Florida. Jack Demaree of the Montgomery Alabama Stake and many like him drove over two thousand miles round trip, using their vacation time to assist the hurricane victims. He brought back an article from a Florida newspaper: "In hot, humid conditions Saturday, about 12,000 volunteers- including 9,000 Mormon church members from six states who brought chain saws, plywood and tar paper- swarmed into South Florida... So many people [were] at work that only two hundred showed up Saturday morning for an outdoor prayer service... despite the... prediction that more than 5,000 would attend." (Ocala, Florida, Sunday newspaper, 6 Sept. 1992.) In my conversation with Brother Demaree about his experience, he said, "All I did was cut up trees that were blown down by the hurricane." Brethren, using that as an analogy, cutting trees is more important thank thinking about cutting trees or planning to cut trees. We are becoming the world experts in meeting, thinking, planning, and organizing about working the work, but we need to do it. We need to work."
 
Bishop J. Richard Clarke said, “Work is a blessing from God. It is a fundamental principle of salvation, both spiritual and temporal.” He went on to say, “We are co-creators with God. He gave us the capacity to do the work he left undone, to harness the energy, mine the ore, transform the treasures of the earth for our good. But most important, the Lord knew that from the crucible of work emerges the hard core of character. One example of obedience to hard work is President Kimball. He had a “Do it!” philosophy and committed himself not only to the pursuit of happiness, but the happiness of pursuit. One time when Dr. Wilkinson showed concern for his health and the increasing demands he was making on his body, Pres. Kimball responded in a kindly way saying, “Your job, Bro Wilkinson, is to keep me going at the pace I am going to go."

Bishop Clarke said, "President Kimball's complete dedication to his work sets a high standard for all of us. We have a moral obligation to exercise our personal capabilities of mind, muscle, and spirit in a way that will return to the Lord, our families, and our society the fruits of our best efforts. To do less is to live our lives unfulfilled. It is to deny ourselves and those dependent upon us opportunity and advantage. We work to earn a living, it is true; but as we toil, let us also remember that we are building a life. Our work determines what that life will be. Work is honorable. It is good therapy for most problems. It is the antidote for worry. It is the equalizer for deficiency of native endowment. Work makes it possible for the average to approach genius. What we may lack in aptitude, we can make up for in performance."

Bishop Clarke suggests a few important elements of work ethic.

"1. We must be motivated by a higher ideal than simply meeting the artificial standard of a society which has allowed inferior performance to be acceptable. That is not the Mormon ethic. In times of unemployment, Latter-day Saints who practice the work principles of our religion should be in great demand.

2. Be honest with your employer. Make sure that "the laborer is worthy of his hire." (D&C 84:79) Our employers should get the best we have in us, not just enough to get by or to meet common standards. Let us exemplify the old pioneer motto: A Full Day's Work for a Full Day's Pay.

3. Continue to invest in your personal development. Expand your occupational horizons by constant study. Use your spare time wisely. If we waste thirteen minutes each day, it is the equivalent of two weeks a year without pay. Look to your present job as a stepping-stone along your career path. Take time to think. The dimensions of most jobs are constrained only by the mind of the uncreative worker. I like what one businessman counseled: "If at first you do succeed, try something harder!"
 In D&C 75:3 and 5 it reads, “Behold I say unto you that it is my will that you should go forth and not tarry, neither be idle but labor with your might. And thus, if ye are faithful ye shall be laden with many sheaves, and crowned with honor, and glory, and immortality, and eternal life.


So now that we know what work means and how to apply it to our lives, the next thing I’ll speak about is being self-reliant. I’m basing this topic from talks given by Pres Marion G. Romney and Lauradene Lindsey. Ever since 1832 the Lord has commanded the Church and its members to become independent and self reliant.  Brigham Young said, “We want you henceforth to be a self sustaining people… This is what the Lord requires of his people. It is our duty to be active and diligent in doing everything we can to sustain ourselves.”
President Romney said, “since the beginning of time man has been counseled to earn his own way, thereby becoming self-reliant.

Elder Albert E. Bowen said, " “The … Church is not satisfied with any system which leaves able people permanently dependent, and insists, on the contrary, that the true function and office of giving, is to help people [get] into a position where they can help themselves and thus be free.” Many programs have been set up by well-meaning individuals to aid those who are in need. However, many of these programs are designed with the shortsighted objective of “helping people,” as opposed to “helping people help themselves.” Our efforts must always be directed toward making able-bodied people self-reliant.

I clipped the following article from the Reader’s Digest some time ago. It reads:

“In our friendly neighbor city of St. Augustine great flocks of sea gulls are starving amid plenty. Fishing is still good, but the gulls don’t know how to fish. For generations they have depended on the shrimp fleet to toss them scraps from the nets. Now the fleet has moved. …

“The shrimpers had created a Welfare State for the … sea gulls. The big birds never bothered to learn how to fish for themselves and they never taught their children to fish. Instead they led their little ones to the shrimp nets.

“Now the sea gulls, the fine free birds that almost symbolize liberty itself, are starving to death because they gave in to the ‘something for nothing’ lure! They sacrificed their independence for a handout.

“A lot of people are like that, too. They see nothing wrong in picking delectable scraps from the tax nets of the U.S. Government’s ‘shrimp fleet.’ But what will happen when the Government runs out of goods? What about our children of generations to come?

“Let’s not be gullible gulls. We … must preserve our talents of self-sufficiency, our genius for creating things for ourselves, our sense of thrift and our true love of independence.”

We should strive to become self-reliant and not depend on others for our existence. But, at the same time there are people who for whatever reason cannot become self reliant on their own. To this President Henry D. Moyle said, “This great principle does not deny to the needy nor the poor the assistance they should have. The wholly incapacitated, the aged, the sickly are cared for with all tenderness, but every able-bodied person is enjoined to do his utmost for himself to avoid dependence, if his own efforts can make such a course possible; to look upon adversity as temporary; to combine his faith in his own ability with honest toil…”
President Romney said the more self-reliant a Latter-day saint is the more able to serve he becomes, and the more he serves the greater his sanctification. The gospel helps us to gain self reliance. Elder Marvin J. Ashton said, “The Lord cares enough about us to give us direction for serving and the opportunity for developing self reliance. As members of the church we should give our time, talents, and resources to care for those in need. This has been our responsibility from the beginning of time. We are better able to fulfill this responsibility if we are striving to become self reliant because we can’t give what we don’t have.
Becoming self reliant in the Lord’s way requires that we work physically, mentally, and spiritually in order to provide as best we can for ourselves and others. With work, we can become self reliant in the following areas: education, health, employment, home storage, resource management, and spiritual, emotional, and social strength.

First from Lauradene Lindsay is education. She says, “educational self-reliance requires the ability to effectively read, write, communicate, and do mathematics. We should also study the scriptures, seek wisdom out of the best books and take advantage of opportunities to increase our learning. In my life, this past year I went to school to be a medical transcriptionist. Sometimes when the reading got to be tedious I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, but once I graduated it was the best feeling of accomplishment knowing I had worked hard to receive my education. Now the next step is getting a job in this field so I can put to good use all that I learned.

Next on Lauradene’s list is health. Keeping our bodies and minds healthy increases our ability to care for ourselves and others. We should live the word of wisdom and avoid substances and lifestyles that would harm our bodies or minds.

Next is employment. In D&C 42:42 it reads, “Thou shalt not be idle; for he that is idle shall not eat the bread nor wear the garments of the laborer. Preparing ourselves for a suitable occupation requires education, training, experience, and diligence. Elder Dallin H. Oaks said that our Heavenly Father expects us to show our faith and appreciation by strenuous personal efforts to magnify the talents and opportunities he has given us. Since I don’t have a real job yet I volunteer at a few places. This gives me experience in other areas and also helps me to not just sit at home.

The next one is home storage. With us being single it’s hard to get on the bandwagon with this one. But self reliant people are better prepared to help themselves as well as others in the event of natural disasters, loss of employment, or other unexpected challenges. We are counseled to store, use, and know how to produce and prepare essential items. We are more secure if we are able to provide for ourselves in times of adversity.

Next is resource management. To manage our resources in a self reliant way, we need to pay tithes and offerings, avoid unnecessary debt, save money, meet our financial obligations, be frugal, use time wisely, and share our time, talents, and resources with the needy.

Last but not least is spiritual, emotional, and social strength. Becoming self reliant in these things can happen as we study the scriptures and words of the living prophets, shun evil and obey the commandments, exercise faith in Christ, pray frequently and fervently, adjust to change, recover from misfortune, and strengthen our relationships with family, friends, and neighbors.

Working and becoming self-reliant brings temporal rewards as well as the promise of heavenly blessings. In D&C 38:29-30 it reads, “Ye hear of wars in far countries, and you say that there will soon be great wars in far countries, but ye know not the hearts of men in your own land. I tell you these things because of your prayers; wherefore, treasure up wisdom in your bosoms, lest the wickedness of men reveal these things unto you by their wickedness, in a manner which shall speak in your ears with a voice louder than that which shall shake the earth; but if ye are prepared ye shall not fear.

I learned a lot as I was preparing for this talk. I know that as we work we become more self reliant through the little things we do in our everyday lives. As we do these things our lives will be blessed as well as those around us. I know this gospel is true. I know the prophets and apostles are called of God and if we listen and heed their words we won’t go astray. I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.  

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

MOTAB

On February 10th my friend took me and a few others to see the Mormon Tabernacle Choir Concert. It was amazing! I loved it! 




Sunday, March 25, 2012

Yummy Goodness

The last few months I have been cooking and baking more. Here are a few things I've eaten.

 
Tasty strawberries smoothies


Juicing- grapes...
It is so good!
 
I had lots of "cutie" oranges so I juiced them to make orange juice! 

german pancakes

All the fixin's

I bought the pizza dough and sauce. 
Then put olives, mushrooms, pepperoni, and cheese. 

I made peanut butter chocolate chip cookies


Delish!
 
The picture below is what I gave to the people building the Temple near me. I took a separate plate to my friend's work to share the wealth of goodness.



I made chicken fajitas last Monday for dinner.


Friday, March 2, 2012

Sewed a Skirt!

I have a friend who is an amazing seamstress. I was telling her I love sewing, but don't know a whole lot so she said she'd help me sew something. I chose a skirt! So we went to JoAnn's and bought a pattern and fabric that were both on sale. I learned how to do french seams and other nifty tricks. Before I sewed the front and back together I tried it on and it was too small. For once in my life something was too small for me!! So I bought more fabric and sewed two strips down each side. Unless you know what happened, you can't even tell they weren't part of the original pattern.

Starting off...

Sewing part of the ruffle.

The back of the skirt is complete!

It's finished!!
 
 
The top I wore with it.