I Will Press On

So yesterday I wasn't in the best mood when I wrote about hearing no to the transplant. This doesn't mean it's a definite no for me. I'm going get other opinions before I give up on the idea.

I was reading Paul Cardall's blog tonight and at the end of his post was this quote. I think it relates to me a lot right now.

"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty." -Winston Churchill

I won't let one surgeon's opinion get me down. I will press on!

Transplant

My transplant coordinator just called and told me the surgeon says I'm not a candidate for a heart/lung transplant. She said the main reason is because of my scoliosis. This does not make sense to me. I already have one and a third lungs and heart in there. How could there not be enough space?? Can someone answer that question for me? They're sending out a letter to my doctors and I next week stating the reasons they found to not give me the transplant. I'm anxious to read what they say.

I'm just bugged.... bugged I tell ya!!

Still Alive

I'm still alive and kickin'. I haven't done a whole lot except for move earlier this month. I am loving where I live now. It's so great!
I was having bad heart palpitations for a week so I pretty much just stayed home chillin'. It was making my fingers and toes swollen, and my hand and feet be sweaty; weird. I was able to see my cardiologist, but by then it had simmered down. I wish it hadn't just so he could have seen what it was doing. He did run 2 tests and said everything looked good. So whatever it was, it fixed itself. Well, I did get a blessing, so I know that's why it went away. It better not come back! That's all I'm saying.
This week I've been helping a friend whose been sick off and on for a year. But things are looking up for her now. I'm so glad. Heavenly Father is definitely watching over her.
Well, that's what I've been up to. I can't believe it's almost May. Time is flying by so fast.

Knitting Looms

I knitted my first hat a few weeks ago with a knitting loom. I bought a kit that has 4 sizes and two little tools. I didn't know what loom fit what kind of head so I just picked one. I ended up using the second size up and it turns out this size is for a small toddler. I think it looks pretty good if I don't say so myself. How did I learn to do this you may ask? YouTube!! That's right, YouTube. I just found a video and followed the step by step instructions. I didn't even mess up! Now that's an accomplishment all by itself.
Tonight I started another one. This time I'm using the second to the highest loom. I'm not really sure how big it'll be or who it's for, but it's just fun to learn something new. I want to make little baby one's for the hospital. That's next.

Tender Mercies

Photo by Greg Olsen

Lately the words "tender mercies" have been on my mind as I've seen the Lord's hand and guidance in my life and in a friend's life. Yesterday I wanted to read a talk on tender mercies so I searched that subject on the church's website. The first one that came up was Elder Bednar's called "The Tender Mercies of the Lord." It's an amazing talk; it was exactly what I needed to hear. It just confirmed the feelings I've been having of how much the Lord is aware of us and knows way more than we do. He knows our strengths, weaknesses, talents, and struggles we go through everyday.
Then this morning I wanted to watch a Mormon Messages video. So I went to the website and noticed there was a video of one of Elder Bednar's talks. (he's one of my favorite apostles) It was the exact talk I read yesterday! I felt the spirit so strong right then because I knew Heavenly Father was aware of me and knew what was on my mind. Once again this confirmed my testimony of how much the Lord is mindful of each one of his children. It's just truly amazing and kind of hard to comprehend how much love He has for us.
All in all just knowing He is aware and only wants the BEST for us is the greatest feeling.

Mom and Sister Visit

My mom and sister came to visit for a few days this past week and we had a lot of fun! Here's what we did...

Seems to Apply to Everyone at Some Point

Lately I have been enjoying new quotes from Young Single Adult Gems.

“Everybody in this life has their challenges and difficulties. That is part of our mortal test. The reason for some of these trials cannot be readily understood except on the basis of faith and hope because there is often a larger purpose which we do not always understand. Peace comes through hope.”

James E. Faust, “Hope, an Anchor of the Soul,” Ensign, Nov. 1999, 59